Greener Grass

Today I'd like to be at home, doing all the things I meant to do since last week. Work seems sluggish lately, and it's my job to get out there and spur some business. But I'm tired, and I lack motivation right now.

I'd like to be at home cleaning, hanging sheets on the line, weeding the garden. Sew up beanbags for the new corn hole game Jed built. Try to get a menu together for our party this weekend. Sleep. Go shopping-- will I ever find a dress to wear this weekend or will it be the same old BORING skirt/shirt combo I've sported for two years now?

I'm sure stay at home folks sometimes wish for the opportunity to be out, dressed up, making a career for themselves, but today... the grass is greener. I'd love to have the chance to breathe, relax, and just maybe do something that I want to do. (And I know that is not all that staying at home involves, obviously, but in my fantasy world today, it does.) Maybe I'll learn to really use my sewing machine. Maybe I'll finish a book I started 1 month ago. Maybe I'll bake something new. Or maybe I won't do any of those things.

Life is work- from 7:30-5:30 every day, cook, eat, do stuff around the house, wash up, get in bed around 10, repeat...

I don't mean to complain, because I know that I have a good job that isn't hard for me. It's close to home, and I work with good people. I have a job, and that's more than I can say for many. But sometimes I wish exploring, living, not working, being creative, taking time off, etc... paid a decent wage and offered health benefits.